What if I am actually scared to leave everything I have ever known? What if I come back and decide that being here feels wrong ( Read more... )

I had a dream that Gavin was brought back to life by some new medical technique they could use on small children who hadn't died of a medical condition. I came to work and he was playing the Wii with Aidan and Lynda was just smiling so happy. I started crying and just grabbed Gavin instantly telling him I've missed him so much. He just smiled at me ( Read more... )

Hey again LJ, I've been using you and xanga a lot lately. But that's mostly because when I am here in my room...alone... I feel like this is the best way to cope with the creeping thoughts ( Read more... )

It's easier to accept what happened. Slowly I let go of trying to rationalize a freak accident. Also the idea of going back to work tomorrow freaks the living shit out of me. And I think Amber is on the same page, everyone is going to be on edge ( Read more... )

RIP Gavin O'Bryant. I will always love the impact you made on my life. I'm still in awe of the amazing happiness and energy such a young boy brought into the world. Three years of my life watching you grow and learn about the world around you, yet you seem to have touched my life more then I realized ( Read more... )